†003 - Childcare

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[Mihail has never really had much of a chance to practice his fathering skills (do suburbs even count?) so this is definitely something else. Perhaps it wouldn't be half as odd if the child he got from HQ wasn't also Norilsk's child. That isn't to say that it's a bad thing, seeing as how the newly-christened Nadezhda is not only adorable but very well-behaved. Mihail's definitely taken a shine to her.

It's just... Well, it's awkward, seeing as how her parents can easily be submerged into a very vicious cycle in their relationship, so this is certainly a questionable situation.

All backstory aside, they've decided to relocate to Mihail's room with Nadezhda for the time being, though Mihail's really stuck as to how to take care of her when he has absolutely nothing in his room that a baby could use. Fun times in parenthood, indeed.]

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/pulls back out ;3;

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/FLAIL. ; 3;

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[ ...different?

this indescribable urge grips him & he's not quite sure what it means, why suddenly he sees mihail as a flighty animal that will run if he so much takes a step forward. ]

...Михаил... Я ...?

i luff it when you speak russian bb /huff huff

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...да?

gtfo /tsuns

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Я тебя люблю.

1/2 /deredere

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I...

2/2

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...T-te iubesc.

...what is this moe bullshit dj.

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[ & he can't believe he blurted the words out, when he's so ... unsure about it all the more he thinks about it. life sucks a little sometimes. breathe. using the sofa's arm rest as support. ]

So...rry?

the very best of moe bullshit <3

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Wh-what's to be sorry for?

HGfghfh fuck this tag /scream

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[ because he'll never be a good enough person, because he wants to touch the side of mihail's face too and most importantly because love is very, very weird. ]

Nothing, I suppose. Habit?

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Habit?

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[ mihail, you bitch ]

Er, yes.

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I...

I should probably...check on her or something.

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I -

Wait!

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[ hesitant. ]

Nothing. Good night.

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[ pressure builds behind his eyes, and he finds himself wrapping his arms around mihail tightly. this is nice. really, really nice and he doesn't want it to

end. ]

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[ a moment to register mihail's shaking shoulders and another to hold him tighter, pressing his cheek against the top of his head. yuri exhales. ]

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[ and clearly, the mistake yuri makes here is looking down at mihail because he can't breathe and they're really close and it's weird and what are they doing. he can't help it, he can't help pressing his forehead against his and closing his eyes, nor can he help flinching at the white noise in his ears and the pain in his chest. ]

adgadh ;///;

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;///n///; /dhg hides.

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[ yuri freezes. his fingers dig at mihail's shoulders, press, holding him. this is something he's not used to, something he hasn't done (or felt, for the matter) in years, and in his chest there's a supernova burning, burning, burning and he still can't breathe but it feels good in a way even if there are knots in his throat and he can't make a sound because what if mihail regrets this what if he leaves and never opens his door to him again that kind of thing.

a hand of his sneaks to the base of his neck -- he would, if he had the courage, hold the back of his head but this has to do, right? ]

;///A///; /dies with

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ahdg /immolates

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[ this closeness is absolutely -

he doesn't know what to think of this yet, but he unwinds, responds even - not to say that mihail's coaxing suddenly filled him with bravado, no (he ain't got swagga); nevertheless, enabling is enabling and yuri's hands find themselves cupping mihail's face, bringing him forward

closer if that's even possible.

he'll worry about the consequences, the apologies, everything later. for now, it's this very moment he wants to focus on because he

really - god

doesn't want to let go, doesn't want to leave, doesn't want mihail to leave yet he knows once this is over, it's back to being cowardly, it's back to pretending nothing happened and that hurts because he

wants this too. ]