†003 - Childcare

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[Mihail has never really had much of a chance to practice his fathering skills (do suburbs even count?) so this is definitely something else. Perhaps it wouldn't be half as odd if the child he got from HQ wasn't also Norilsk's child. That isn't to say that it's a bad thing, seeing as how the newly-christened Nadezhda is not only adorable but very well-behaved. Mihail's definitely taken a shine to her.

It's just... Well, it's awkward, seeing as how her parents can easily be submerged into a very vicious cycle in their relationship, so this is certainly a questionable situation.

All backstory aside, they've decided to relocate to Mihail's room with Nadezhda for the time being, though Mihail's really stuck as to how to take care of her when he has absolutely nothing in his room that a baby could use. Fun times in parenthood, indeed.]

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[cenusa-lumina.livejournal.com]

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[a-retracta.livejournal.com]

[ tired of fiddling with the doorknob and calling out to mihai. he's a little sad...and lonely, but maybe mihai really isn't in his room and is somewhere else. maybe he's in the kitchen...!

if he isn't, he'll come back and pick the lock. ]

[cenusa-lumina.livejournal.com]

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Nicu--Nicolae is...what people would call my ex-boyfriend now. It was a very strange sort of relationship.

[gulags.livejournal.com]

[ WELL THEN. ISN'T THIS COMPLICATED... ]

Ah - I see. [ really, he has nothing to say about that. ]

[cenusa-lumina.livejournal.com]

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Yes... I don't exactly like...reflecting on it. [] Ah... You don't think any lower of me, do you? []

[gulags.livejournal.com]

It's not my place.

[ at least, that's better than, "it isn't my business" - that's akin to indifference. the truth is, he does care to an extent if only because he's never seen mihail look so uncomfortable (a bit of a stretch - he's seen him like that, but only when he's done something upsetting...?). ]

I - [ "would not." ] Why do you ask?

[cenusa-lumina.livejournal.com]

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Nicolae has never been very stable, and perhaps I've made a lot of bad decisions...

[gulags.livejournal.com]

I do not think anyone is exempt from this. Bad decisions, I mean.

[cenusa-lumina.livejournal.com]

No, I wouldn't expect they would be.

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That was just a particularly bad decision.

[gulags.livejournal.com]

[ the cutest smelter child ever. ]

... Oh. [ would prod, except ... ] I'm sorry.

[cenusa-lumina.livejournal.com]

It is nothing to be sorry for. Nicolae and I used to be part of the same country, and I suppose that gave us the idea to be in a relationship. And then when the country split, it all went horribly wrong. It is my mistake I let it go on that long and became that attached.

[gulags.livejournal.com]

[ he didn't necessarily want to hear this explanation. ]

You - you don't owe me any explanations.

[cenusa-lumina.livejournal.com]

I... I'm sorry. I got ahead of myself. [ As I said. I have made bad decisions.

[gulags.livejournal.com]

No.

[ a sigh and a friendly - !! - pat on the shoulder, not really...looking at him. ]

It's...alright. No one is perfect. I certainly wouldn't judge you over that. [ "because i can't" ]

[cenusa-lumina.livejournal.com]

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I don't see...how you couldn't.

[gulags.livejournal.com]

Because.

[ the hand lingers. ]

[cenusa-lumina.livejournal.com]

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[gulags.livejournal.com]

[ yuri doesn't move either. he could -
perhaps -

no, nevermind. he wants to say something, anything. his mouth shapes, forms, an "I" and he shuts it because there's really nothing he can say. instead, he smiles a little. ]

[cenusa-lumina.livejournal.com]

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fuck yo cute faces. :(

[gulags.livejournal.com]

[ he is too & actually, he's tempted to move closer than they already are. he doesn't. ]

- you're my friend.

[ that totally comes after the "because". totally. ]

no u

[cenusa-lumina.livejournal.com]

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And you're mine too.

non toi.

[gulags.livejournal.com]

[ ... quiet silence. ]

Ah, sorry.

[ hand retract. ]

i'm going to use his awesome face one of these days

[cenusa-lumina.livejournal.com]

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Nothing to be sorry for.

it will be awesome

[gulags.livejournal.com]

[ gee, this sudden change in atmosphere. ]




Is everything alright?

[cenusa-lumina.livejournal.com]

Yes, everything is fine.

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Perhaps we should...put Nadezhda to bed soon.